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It was a typical Saturday morning in November 2012 when I acknowledged I was worthy. I was standing in my dining room, looking out at the mountains that I so loved and knew I would never enjoy again to the level I wanted to in my current condition. Standing there in my house, I realized that I would never reach the summits, that the very thing that fueled my soul as a child was off-limits to me as an adult. I was a prisoner in my obese body, in my own self-loathing mindset. Tears formed in my eyes, a knot in my heart, and I felt my entire life drying up.
And there it was, the message I heard and accepted that morning - I am worthy and I held the key to release myself from my own state of fear, of feeling powerless, insecure, unworthy.
My journey took a sharp detour that morning. It was one that allowed the layers of emotions and the walls of protection that I had built over the years to be removed. It was one where I stopped asking the world to create my happiness, where I took responsibility for my condition, emotionally and physically. To be completely open with you, it was not easy. I faced detours, roadblocks, and at times I felt like my entire life was under construction. However, my journey has brought me to a state of compassion and love where I now acknowledge that I am worthy to be happy, to trust, and to live fully.
Our souls - our true selves - are constantly receiving messages to bring our body, mind, and soul to be at peace together. We all seek a life of love, one that is full of gratitude, joy, and confidence. If you are reading this and acknowledge the pain of being a prisoner within yourself or not feeling worthy to live your fullest life, then you, too, are receiving the very message you need to start your own journey of healing.